I had the horrifying realization today that this time next year I will be in New York City, auditioning with Bama on Broadway for agents. Or I will have just been and will now be wallowing in disgrace or triumphant in the face of my fancy New York callbacks. It's something I've been thinking about on and off this whole year, but now the immediacy of it all is really scary.
I'm almost done with my junior year of college (and jeez when did THAT happen?) and I just feel so unprepared. This is not unusual I know, most people of the cusp of the real world in the way college students are feel this way, but my whole nebulous future is just wavering in front of me. This is my make or break moment. Okay. I'm being a little dramatic. But this is the culmination of my college career and will be my first step into the "business." This will be my first time being seen professionally by people who don't know me from Eve. It's thrilling but probably the most terrifying thing I'll have to do in my college career. Drama right?
So I need partners and scenes and a type and God, what's my type? I realize that I have foolishly not considered what type I would play. I've thought about it in a vague, distanced way but now I'm seriously thinking what do I want to be? This upcoming year will be filled with me asking people to be brutally honest about my appearance and personality and would they please tell me what they think. I've already made a few of my friends uncomfortable. Score. Oh well. Panic only makes me want to work harder, so that's what I'll do. In the end - the only thing I can do is work my ass off and leave the rest to them.
I'm almost done with my junior year of college (and jeez when did THAT happen?) and I just feel so unprepared. This is not unusual I know, most people of the cusp of the real world in the way college students are feel this way, but my whole nebulous future is just wavering in front of me. This is my make or break moment. Okay. I'm being a little dramatic. But this is the culmination of my college career and will be my first step into the "business." This will be my first time being seen professionally by people who don't know me from Eve. It's thrilling but probably the most terrifying thing I'll have to do in my college career. Drama right?
So I need partners and scenes and a type and God, what's my type? I realize that I have foolishly not considered what type I would play. I've thought about it in a vague, distanced way but now I'm seriously thinking what do I want to be? This upcoming year will be filled with me asking people to be brutally honest about my appearance and personality and would they please tell me what they think. I've already made a few of my friends uncomfortable. Score. Oh well. Panic only makes me want to work harder, so that's what I'll do. In the end - the only thing I can do is work my ass off and leave the rest to them.